Vogue has just released the interview along with some more beautiful pictures. Katy admits in the interview that she’s still in love with John Mayer, even though at the time they were broken up (and might still be, who knows these days).
Katy also, interestingly, talks about her divorce from Russell Brand. She confesses that Russell asked for their divorce via text message, which is such a d-bag thing to do.
Is being a celebrity overwhelming? “Of course I get fazed. And when I am in between records, sometimes I doubt myself. I’ll be like: Did I just get lucky, or did I mass-manipulate the world into thinking that seven songs were worth a number-one position? And then I go back into the studio and I start writing, and the true essential oil of who I am comes bubbling back up and reminds me that it’s always been inside of me, that nobody can take this away no matter what comment anyone makes. It’s going to be there because it’s what I was born with and it’s what I’ve worked on my whole life.”
Her childhood: The atmosphere at home, she says, was “not fun.” She told me, “My parents did not spare the rod. I wasn’t going to great schools, because my parents didn’t believe in public education. They wanted the education to be influenced by their religion, so I was going to these halfway education-slash-Christian schools that were like pop-up shop–style education. My father is hilarious. That’s where I get my sense of humor from. Sooo, he’s very funny and a practical joker, but he’s more emotional and driven. I mean, my mother is very emotional as well, but my dad is more of the guts of the family. He was the main preacher, so he kind of had this little Pentecostal flair, but they are born-again. So there’s a little bit of my background.”
Russell Brand in the beginning: “He’s a very smart man, and I was in love with him when I married him. Let’s just say I haven’t heard from him since he texted me saying he was divorcing me December 31, 2011. I mean, I have to claim my own responsibility in things. I do admit that I was on the road a lot. Although I invited him time and time again, and I tried to come home as much as I possibly could. You saw that in the movie.” Katy Perry: Part of Me, a documentary released last year that has garnered $32 million worldwide to date, covers the period before, during, and after her time with Brand. “That wasn’t edited to leave footage out–there wasn’t any footage of him.”
LOTS MORE PHOTOS – MORE ON RUSSELL – AND WHAT SHE SAYS ABOUT JOHN MAYER – AFTER THE JUMP!
On their 14 month marriage: “At first when I met him he wanted an equal, and I think a lot of times strong men do want an equal, but then they get that equal and they’re like, I can’t handle the equalness. He didn’t like the atmosphere of me being the boss on tour. So that was really hurtful, and it was very controlling, which was upsetting. I felt a lot of responsibility for it ending, but then I found out the real truth, which I can’t necessarily disclose because I keep it locked in my safe for a rainy day. I let go and I was like: This isn’t because of me; this is beyond me. So I have moved on from that.”
Are she and John Mayer over – or not?: “Over.” Oh, my. I had made the tabloid reader’s assumption that she was stepping out with Mayer as a classic “revenge” relationship, to show ol’ Rusty Brand what he was missing–but she cuts in: “No, not at all. No, I was madly in love with him. I still am madly in love with him.” With John Mayer? That wasn’t what I expected to hear at all. “All I can say about that relationship is that he’s got a beautiful mind. Beautiful mind, tortured soul. I do have to figure out why I am attracted to these broken birds.”
On her future loves: “I hope I don’t have to live as a widow.” Whaaat? “An emotional widow. No, I don’t believe that. But I think that I can just right now focus on me and strengthening myself and my emotional support system. I’m not in a relationship, I’m just on my own–I am myself in my own bed. I have to be happy being alone, and I am happy.” She tries so hard, Katy Perry. It’s what she does. “I believe that I will be loved again, in the right way.” Bright-eyed, she looks up. “I know I’m worth it.”
Katy is holed up in the studio right now working on her third album. Apparently she played a couple new songs for the journalist.
I found the whole Russell Brand discussion interesting. I feel like she was hinting at the fact that he cheated. I don’t doubt for one second that he cheated, in fact, I’d be shocked if he didn’t. Being left alone while she goes on a world tour – not a good environment for an admitted sex addict. I also found the discussion about John Mayer really interesting. We see so many women being drawn to him, and it’s interesting to hear why that is.
Doesn’t she look great in these photos?